Friday, March 6, 2009


Here I sit, in awe and wonder of an intelligence that permeates the fabric of our lives.

So many fragmented events, so many micro moments that seem to be independent of each other that have occurred over the past week or two.

In a project to create my first squiddo lens, I choose a man named Peter Russell as the subject for my first topic.

I go to Peter's web site to update myself on information and find a curious new addition to his site.

I get an intuitive nudge for action and I follow through on it.

It is politely rejected, it seems irrellevant, and I let go.

I only wish that I could remember all the steps that followed, I cannot.

I can only tell you where they have led to at this moment.

For some time now, I have been striving to achieve the method and means that would enble me to make drastic changes in my life. Changes that would allow me to live in the moment, free of financial worry and stress, free to pursue my passion and free from the constraints of time.

And this is where the paradox begins:

katipedia: paradox-two views on a topic or situation that appear at first sight to be in direct contrast to one another, however, when the aspects of the situation are removed, it is evident that there is an underlying common truth.

It is not to be implied that the following is a ultimate truth, but rather my truth at this moment.

Thoughts are things, they are the energy with which you create your present reality.

There is in reality no financial stress or worry except that which I choose to create with my thoughts. Nothing more than an accumulation of ideas and concepts around how I think things work, what I believe needs to be done or what I feel needs to be present to achieve my goals.

I ask myself the following questions:

Is there anything I need to do or change before I can live in the present moment?

Are there really any obstacles that have to be removed before I can pursue my passion?

Ultimately, since it is I who controls how I will use time, is there any truth to the idea in my head that my time is limited?

It all comes back to thoughts

In any given moment, there will be one thought or another, jumping up and down in my head, saying, pick me, pick me.

Some thoughts will have concepts attached to them that create more thoughts, like fear thoughts. Fear thoughts are highly evolved creatures. They separate themselves from the other thoughts and give the illusion that they are different...they are real.

Fear thoughts are concepts that been infused with the added stability of emotion, they have pain attached them. As humans, it is a basic survival tool to seek pleasure and avoid pain. All too often as a result, when fear shows itself, we look away or pretend it doesn't exist.

No truer statement has ever been said, "There is nothing to fear, but fear itself."

I have been practicing something new with fear thoughts for a while.

When they surface, I take a good look, a curious and inquisitive look at what they are made of. Sometimes there is uncomfortable emotion or a strange anxiety that beckons me to turn back. I have learned to get comfortable with feeling uncomfortable and to be peaceful while feeling anxiety.

And this is the point where I can go no further,

for you see, this is something you have to experience for yourself to know it's truth.

If you take my word for it, you are doing nothing more than adding new thoughts, new concepts, to a mind all ready on FULL.

In the spirit of a good spring cleaning.....spend a little time in a quiet place and look with child like curiosity at the thoughts that fill your head.....let a few go, make room for some new ones.

Observe the thoughts that have made up the script of your life to this point.

Direct the energy of your thoughts to a specific outcome.

Create a life story that will win the Ultimate Academy Award (Whatever that looks like to you)

As with all that I write or say, take what resonates with you and leave the rest behind for perhaps another time.

Kat :)

1 comment:

  1. Hi Kat!
    I'll give you a Blog Academy Award for this post!!
    The thought "how can I learn to be in the NOW?" is kind of funny... Cause all we ever have IS the NOW... We are in it all the time....
    But our thoughts.......
    Take Care! :-)